03 November 2006


(In my dream from this morning, we had traveled long through many rooms and spaces, running from a vicious Enemy who had several times attacked us. At times I had fought the wicked one, and at times simply run on, thinking, Now I know how Frodo must have felt. I was very small and weak compared with the loathsome Thing which hounded us, but thankfully I was accompanied by a tall and mighty Guide and Friend. At last in our journey we came upon a great torrential river...the river looked like enormous sheets of hard paper torn and jagged, as if the water itself were coarse enough to cut a man to pieces and carry him far away in death to the Shadowy lands...yet there was nowhere else to go but forward...)

Standing beside the great rushing river in which many souls, I knew, had been lost, and with the great and evil Enemy close behind us, I stood now petrified with fear. How long I stood transfixed by the fierce water before us, I cannot say, but my Friend broke the silence.

"Simple one," said my Companion, "do you not know that it was I Who carried Abraham and your fathers through the Great River to safety beyond?"

His words were meant to give me courage and faith. I looked up at Him, then looked again at the raging torrent. Still fearful but trying to make a show of bravery, I gasped to Him in a small voice, "I go with You. Where is Your boat?"

He smiled that smile which is only His.

"Boat?" He asked.

(And I awoke.)

01 November 2006

A Sick Day

What does one write on a bleary-eyed day
when the wet sky is falling in pieces of grey
to efface the still-beautiful golden of Fall
and remind who it was
made green leaves turn away?

How does one smile when all Time must appall
so that hours are minutes and minutes are years
in which everything laughing as well makes you cry
till your eyes are both bleary
with undeclared tears?

Why must the blood in these mad veins run dry,
the liquid turn powder, the dust become air,
the Life become Death, in a moment made stale,
and Who makes it "Life"
and Who calls it "fair"?

O, Life, the first product bound never to fail,
invention of Promise, perpetuate Light--
Who can resist you, detain you, undo you,
But Who did invent you,
Ex nihilo, bright?

I'm not terribly pleased with that last stanza, but as I wasn't intending to write any verse at all, it shows some promise. I really only sat down to ponder what one might write when sitting home alone all day with a cold? I have had chicken noodle soup aplenty to cheer my soul, and have read a good deal today, but to be stuck at home is not fun today. Sadly, yesterday afternoon as this cold began its stealthy stalking within me, my car Sherrie also went out of commission. Unknown mechanical issues, and I was forced to have her towed to a garage in Collegedale which has yet to call me with the diagnosis. So I truly am stuck in the old apartment, with an old quilt and some old books and movies, and a very old dilemma: how to spend the sick day at home.

I'm not sure why I'm comforted even by the simple act of writing just now, but it certainly is true. I haven't really got anything to say, and probably shouldn't prevail upon your time by asking you to read aimless thoughts...wasteful, really. But the Lord bless you for wasting your time in sympathy for a sick friend (smile).

I know! Since I'm writing, I might as well be writing some thoughts for the Precept study...